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Oct. 12th, 2005 @ 05:35 pm (no subject)

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Sep. 19th, 2005 @ 08:58 pm (no subject)

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BLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

FUCKITY, FUCK, FUCK, FUCK!!!

I don't want to go to school anymore. I don't fucking know why either. :'(

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Sep. 2nd, 2005 @ 07:52 pm (no subject)

What would he do if he found out I'm bi-curious??? Ugh...

This is random, I know. But I've been thinking...and I don't care what anyone except for him thinks of me...

*cries*

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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 10:51 pm (no subject)

I need to roll over and die.

Honestly, I do.

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Aug. 12th, 2005 @ 09:34 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

crappy
Current Music: Bed of Nails - Alice Cooper

Ugghhh...today's been a really shitty day, and no one seems to give a flying fuck, but that's okay. I don't need anyone.

I got maybe 2-3 hours of sleep today...and when dad came home this morning, I was sorting through the new drama on the DMB, and I find out my kitten...my little Sophia...was run over. And I feel weak as hell right now, because I actually cried over a KITTEN. I've never cried over my great-grandpa, great-grandpa, grandpa (either one of 'em), Dime, etc. but today I cried over a kitten...pathetic, or what?

And about an hour or so ago, I got on greatestjournal, just to see if anyone cared, and Dar and I are fighting again...I lost it. I pretty much blew up...and now I've gotta fix it, 'cause she won't. And besides, I kinda started it, so I'll fix it.

Why do I even have friends? Ugghhh...it can be really depressing to have friends, sometimes/most of the time.

I should've stuck with my plan that I came up with a long time ago...ditch everyone, and work as hard as I possibly can in school and life in general. Ugh...

But one thing that pisses me off is, no one seems to understand that Disturbed has kept me alive, and math is a release for me...and that people on the DMB treat me a hell of a lot better than people IRL. They've accepted me for who I am...they don't care that I have a weird math "obsession". They've accepted that, and I still feel as if some people around here have a "problem" with my "obsession", and the fact that I'm not interested in guys or anything "normal" teens are interested in...

I feel so damn alone...and I want my kitten back...:'(

God, I think I'm even too depressed to watch NUMB3RS, and that starts in a few...

I WANNA FUCKING GO TO SLEEP, BUT I CAN'T...AND I WANT MY LITTLE SOPHIA BACK!!!

15 damn days until my b-day...this has been a GRRRREEEAAATTT early b-day present. I'm gonna try and get another kitten for my b-day...but I highly doubt it'll happen. And there isn't any cat out there that can replace my little Sophia...

I am so fucking pathetic.

Whatever.

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Aug. 4th, 2005 @ 10:14 pm WTF, WTF, WTF

Current Mood:

weird
Current Music: Disturbed, 'nuff said!

Ack, it's been...quite a long while...since I've updated this. X_X

But...since this is the journal I bitch in, that's exactly what I'm going to do...(Why is my GJ called "Home of the Official Bitch-A-Thon" and this one called "Welcome To My Freaking World" when I obviously use this one for the bitching? Well, then again...I do bitch in my other quite a lot...ah, to hell with it!)

Oh...so much to bitch about...so little time...and wtf was I trying to do to this thing the last time I messed with it??? LOL.

Alright, first off...I've got a weird lump on my back and I have to get it checked out tomorrow...I don't know what it is, it's weirding me out, though...

Second off, I got 3 hours of sleep last night, and I'm not even tired anymore...wtf is wrong with me?

Third...school begins in 18 days, or something like that...I'm terrified. There is only one thing I'm looking forward to...and I feel like a nerd saying it, but...it's geometry. And I'm even afraid of geometry because I'm afraid I'm going to fail...there is only one thing I have to be proud of in my life (other than the fact that I am a Disturbed fan) and that is/was my math grade this past year, and just...the fact I was doing so well. I don't wanna fuck it up, but I'm going to end up fucking it up by thinking I'll fuck it up and fearing that I'll fuck it up...

Okay, I am a confusing person, I'm hyper (kinda) and nervous and I need to take my Celexa and knock myself out...and...IDK.

Why am I so damn hyper when I've only had 3 hours of sleep???? I'm not tired at all anymore...wtf?????

Well, if I can't sleep, I need to read that book I got on the mathematician Bertrand Russell...and then teach myself some geometry for this year...and then...go through every problem in that algebra book AGAIN...and...

WTF? This isn't the good hyper...but this isn't necessarily the bad hyper...IDK, IDK, IDK!

Uhm...yeah, hello Kay!! LMFAO.

Okay...goodnight...I guess...

BBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!

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May. 25th, 2005 @ 04:30 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

frustrated
Current Music: Suicide Messiah - Zakk Wylde's Black Label Society

I know it's been awhile since I've posted...but I need to rant, sorry...and I can't put these exact words on GJ, or I'd get a whole bunch of shit...

WHY THE FUCK DOESN'T HE SEE HOW MUCH I FUCKING LOVE HIM?! (I mean, not in a sexual way...that'd be kinda weird...but I love him, as in, I RESPECT him, very, very, very much so...)

DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT, DAMN IT! I LOVE HIM, OKAY? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR...

I've gtg...damn softball...

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Mar. 4th, 2005 @ 03:42 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

pissed off
Current Music: Blue Eyes- King Diamond

I am so fucking pissed off.
I need my own little personal victory...but that won't happen.
I am so sick of being compared to her. She is better than me in every way, I am completely aware of that! No one needs to fuckin' remind me. BUT PEOPLE DON'T NEED TO COMPARE US! I am fuckin' sick of it!

Just when Mr. N. and Miss N. were able to raise my self-esteem and confidence just a LITTLE someone had to go and fuck things up. Grrrrrrrrr...

Ha, I should've done my c/c essay on her and I.

Don't get me wrong, I'm not mad at her. She doesn't even know it's happening. And NO I will NOT say who she is.

Well, I've gtg...damn AOL. I've got a fuckin' headache...today sucks...(Why did I leave math class? I swear, that is the ONLY class I can feel smart in. And the ONLY class I'm happy in.)

Pathetic, eh?

Later...

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Feb. 21st, 2005 @ 09:04 am (no subject)

Current Mood:

determined
Current Music: The One- Overkill \\m//

I HAVE TO GO TO OZZFEST THIS YEAR!!
That was kinda random...oh well.
My life will never be complete until I go to Ozzfest at LEAST once.
Eh...well I've gtg.
Damn AOL...oh well. I'll be back later.

Later. \\m//

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Feb. 6th, 2005 @ 09:27 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

guilty
Current Music: What Drives the Weak- Shadows Fall

I feel guilty as fuck right now...
I've spent hours cutting myself today.
(But only a few things have showed up...you can't even tell that I tried to slit my wrists.)
I've needed a release today...thats the only thing I could come up with. I couldn't listen to too much music 'cause mom and dad left me home alone with Justin and I didn't wanna piss him off.
And I didn't have any math to do...god damn, I'm pathetic.

Anyways...I'm off to join more communities. (I found a lesibian community I wanna join, they're all from Ohio.)

Bye bye...I'm sorry...

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Jan. 3rd, 2005 @ 03:07 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

crappy
Current Music: Spill The Blood- Slayer

Man, I am dieing.
Or am I just a dead girl living in somebody else's body?
Well, I've got to go.
Damn it, I just got on, and they're making me get off.
I'll be back, damn it.
I'll make sure of it.
Bye.

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Dec. 18th, 2004 @ 07:35 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

nerdy
Current Music: Nothin' at the moment, grr grr grr grr grr grr grr grr!

Well, hello.
Man, I have been such a freakin' nerd today. And just about every day in the past couple of months.
What happened to me??? Errrrrrr! I'm gonna go insane.
I can't stay long, but oh well.
Psycho Holiday is a GREAT song. I love Pantera.
R.I.P. DIMEBAG!
I'm sorry, people must be getting so sick of hearing about it now, but it is a sad time...
And Bailey, I don't know if you read my GreatestJournal, but I am sorry about last night. I seriously have no idea what was wrong with me, other than I felt so freakin' empty and alone.
Don't ask me why, 'CAUSE I DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER TO THAT!
Well, I've got to go in a minute or so. I've got to go home. (See my GJ if you have no idea wtf I'm talking about...http://www.greatestjounal.com/users/KKTheCannibal)
Crap, I need to find some good communities on here...I need friends...=(
I'm out, too risky to post. Too many people around. And I'm not saying thats a bad thing, 'cause it ain't a bad thing.
Call me later, B. Well, tommorrow if you can.
I'm out. (I'M OUT THE DOOR WITH MORE! HAHAHAHAHHHAHAHAHAHAHA! =D rotflmfao)
Nah, I think I'm out the door with LESS. ;)
Bye

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Dec. 15th, 2004 @ 08:51 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

depressed
Current Music: By Demons Be Driven- Pantera

Jesus Christ, its already been a week since Dimebag was shot.
I wish I could say things have gotten better, but earlier today they got worse.
I went out to get the mail today, and I saw this black thing with a little bit of white on the side of the road. I didn't think much of it, until I started walking towards it to cross the road. Thats when I realized it wasn't a fuckin' groundhog, or anything else like that. It was one of my fuckin' cats. The cool one, Kick Ass. The one that'll box with you. Man, why the fuck did HE get hit?
What a GREAT week its been! Well, I've gotta go finish my music project. I am so fucking pissed off right now. Bye.

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Dec. 12th, 2004 @ 09:29 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

amused
Current Music: Blink Of An Eye- DamagePlan

Man, if I wasn't German by blood, I'd swear that I'm German at heart.
(Kinda like how I swear I'm Italian at heart, sometimes?)
Now I know where the whole potato thing came from...
I'll explain later.
Well, I just got another e-mail from Spam Boy.
2nd today, actually. (Or is this the 3rd?)
Well, I'll be back later.
Bye

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Dec. 11th, 2004 @ 04:23 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

crushed
Current Music: Save Me- DamagePlan

='-( ...
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R.I.P. DIMEBAG DARRELL LANCE ABBOTT...
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You won't be forgotten brother...
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...I'll be ok, I swear...
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I LOVE YOU DIMEBAG!!

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Dec. 6th, 2004 @ 03:25 pm This little bitch is pissed off.

Current Mood:

depressed
Current Music: In The Shadow Of The Valley Of Death- Marilyn Manson

I am pissed off.
I HATE (ALMOST) EVERYONE, DAMN IT.
Man, I need to find myself a place in the dirt...dig a hole, fall inside, and rot.
I'm too fuckin' depressed to type anymore...I'll post somethin' later...if at all possible. (Gotta get started on that fucking hole/grave.)
Oh yea, I also gotta do my math homework (THANK GOD!), and that stupid ass American history homework...(that class is so damn boring...)
Well, a nice big "FUCK YOU!" to you all now.
Good day.

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Dec. 5th, 2004 @ 05:33 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

crazy
Current Music: Droppin' Plates- Disturbed

LMFAO.
MY FRIEND STILL DON'T KNOW ABOUT THIS ACCOUNT.
I JUST POSTED A STUPID LITTLE COMMENT IN HER JOURNAL, CONCERNING SOME SPARE CHANGE FER A BUS TICKET TO CHICAGO. (I posted anynomously) <-- Sorry, I can't spell.
I'd like to travel...Well, I'll be back tommorrow, hopefully.
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
Bye
The school is over yonder young lad!

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Dec. 2nd, 2004 @ 04:34 pm (no subject)

Current Mood:

horny
Current Music: The Nobodies- Marilyn Manson, baby!

Eh, I'm bored as hell.
Do I have anything interesting to say?
OF COURSE I DO!
...
...
...
...
...I'm thinkin', and I'm gettin' nothin'.
Oh yea, my post yesterday was kinda crappy soooooo...
I will now tell you a bit of information about myself.
My name is Katie...I am a drummer, I listen to different types of metal and I listen to industrial...My highest goal in life is to live 'til June. (I can die after that, LOL.
J/K, J/K, J/K, J/K, J/K!!)
Or is my higest goal in life to make out with a lesibian chick on Jerry Springer...?
I don't remember.
Well, I'll be back!!
Bye

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Dec. 1st, 2004 @ 05:09 pm Hello!

Current Mood:

Cold, but feeling geeky
Current Music: In The Shadow of The Valley of Death- Marilyn Manson

Hello everyone. I am new to this, and I will be your hostess in this nice little journal of mine.
Please don't flame me just yet. LOL
Well, I'll be posting later with more information about myself. Goodbye.

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